It breaks my heart that this is the last photo taken of all of us together, and it's about 15 years old.
I miss you so much baby brother.
Friday, October 4, 2013
Lost
I apologize for my absence, it's not that I haven't been creating, I have. In fact, it's the only thing that brings me peace right now. It's now the only connection I have to my youngest brother, who passed away suddenly on August 20th at the age of 33. I have no words to express how much this hurts. I know, logically, that everyone suffers the loss of loved ones, that dying is a part of living. And because I was able to accept this fact when my grandfather, father, and grandmother each passed away, I believed I had a solid grasp of this concept. Even when my junior high friend died from a thoughtless gang related game, I knew that the grief would pass, and life would move forward as it's meant to. But there are days now when I just can't wrap my mind around how the world continues as if there's nothing missing.
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I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I'm the eldest and I would be devastated if I lost any of my brothers. Take one day at a time. Better days will come. Take care, Ana
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. I know there are no words that I can write to help you deal with this. I lost my sister almost 10 years ago (she was 26) and that hole still exists to this day. It will always be there. The hurt, the questioning, the absence. . .always there. But, you learn to live with it knowing that they would want you to have a happy, fulfilling life. I do wish for you some relief from the grief and am glad that creating is giving that to you.
ReplyDeleteMy deepest sympathies.
Dear Klaudette,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss! It is very hard to deal with death because we simply weren't created to deal with it. But it is part of the life we have at the present time so we must. I loved the collection of memories you have. I have found it helps to talk about the good times, the funny moments, and the remember whens.... The pain never goes away but as time passes it gets a little easier to deal with. My deepest sympathies are with you!